Title: Light Seeker

Gender: Male

Age: 35

Sun Sign: Leo

Chinese Sign: Water Ox

Location: Santa Monica, CA

I AM

How do I know what I know
Is it the knowing of what I am not
Is it the knowing of what I am
Perhaps the very dichotomy and divine astronomy
That depicts the very image lingering in me as me
I am that I am

How do I know what I know
Is it within the stillness of my being
Is it within my minds eye seeing without seeing
Am I remembering a time before time
Realizing my mind within minds
I am

How do I know that I know
Is it from this feeling called love
Is it love that gives me this feeling
The process of becoming without blind believing
That perputates the very comprehension of my being
I am

How do I know that I know
Is it the whispers of truth in my ear
Is it the final lesson, love and not fear
Perhaps it came in form of lifes game
Self realized blame upon my true name
I am that I am


By Eric Willis


Recalling my earliest thoughts, I always felt a little different. Viewing the world and the people in it differently somehow than people around me. Noticing certain subtleties going on that no one could provide answers for.

Early in my childhood I began to see certain subtle energies. Not having any explanation of what I was seeing, it merely was something to play with whenever I was alone by myself. I was able to play with the energy by moving it around. I can remember even taking it and building some sort of field of light around my bed and my brothers bed in order to protect us while we slept. I also have felt this pressure between my eyes for as long as i can remember to the point where it becomes so strong it feels as if I'm breathing through it. While in a relaxed state this pressure is also followed by what seems to be a pulsating indigo color emanating from me.

As I grew older I was introduced to several books that explained what I was experiencing and feeling and even had pictures of twhat I had seen. It was the first time in my life where I felt I was getting real answers that made sense. Eventually this led to an insatibable thirst for more knowledge, and I pretty much read everything i could get my hands on.

After reading as much as I could, I knew conceptually I was gaining a pretty good understanding of my true identity, but conceptually wasnt enough. I needed to experience, so I began taking yoga and private lessons in meditation. It was in my meditations where I felt things begin to shift. I felt all kinds of strange energies. My body felt like it was on fire with energy at times. I began to notice that I was gaining understanding that I wasnt quite able to put into words. It was a knowing that was coming over me.

With my  continued practice I could feel myself changing at a rapid pace. I wanted to share what i was realizing with all of my friends, but noone seemed to be able to understand me. I quickly began to feel like I could no longer relate to many of my friends. Somehow I knew I was changing, and was about to make a huge shift that would have no return. FEAR! A lot of it was kicking in. Everything I knew to be was about to change. What I had been seeking for so long now seemed terrifying to me. I can remember my instructor telling me how things were about to change. And I would be seeing/experiencing many different things and to not worry and to call him anytime. I knew what he was telling me was the truth because I could feel it happening. FEAR kicked in again and sent me completely the other way.

I stopped my practice after this and began to deny a good part of my true self for many years, but thankfully I am no longer able to deny my true self. The calling is stronger than I have ever felt before and I am now in the process of completely surrending myself to it. My surrender has not been easy as it calls for the unveiling of so many illusions of myself, and the world in whole. But I am grateful for every single experience as it provides me the opportunity for higher truths as a process to my becoming.


I am practicing daily meditation again and can feel many of my gifts coming back to me. :) I feel my soul purpose beginning to take shape and am now preparing myself to take my place beside my brothers and sisters in ushering in the new world.


Love, Light, and Truth

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